MAYAN CALENDAR DAYKEEPER’S JOURNAL
9 Eagle/MEN is my own Mayan Birthday. Looking back in Time, I set foot on the Sacred Path of the Sun/Moon Dance on September 20, 2002. It was 3 Eagle/MEN, the day my path took flight. The only speck I could see from the beginning was the Light that shined from other eyes.
What I’ve learned in 20 years is that there’s so much more I want to know and how little I’ve seen of my own life, now that I know what I’m looking for. It’s no less beautiful to see it now, as long as I’ve seen it before the end.
I was always trying to see myself as the light in someone else’s eyes. Trying to find myself, I never thought of looking within. If someone could just tell me who I appeared to be. We “appear” in our own Dreams.
I began a journal online as the means of keeping all my thoughts in one place. When I tried to journal before it was left on pieces of paper, and a variety of yellow pads without any order. The whole reason is to see the order.
I was afraid of being seen so I didn’t sign my name in the beginning. I was only dedicated to one meaning and purpose to find a meaning and purpose for my life from a dark place that seemed to go on forever. Until, I came to my last hope. The ONLY way I could see was to totally invest myself in the One Thing in my life that offered any meaning to the experience of my life. It was an 8 Monkey/CHUEN, the day of the Daykeeper Initiation, that I wholly dedicated myself to the purpose of 260 days and 260 glyphs, just to make it as hard as I could – to KNOW I’d invested everything I had in the purpose.
Was it ever a steep climb. Though, the Divine Justice was that it only took 260 days to be born into the Light of a Brand New Life. A decade of seasonal depression just fell away. It took 4 years to claim that it was really true. Now I LOVE EVERY SEASON.
The Biggest Gift was YOU, the unexpected surprise that you would share my company. You raised the Truth that we are NEVER alone. There is someone somewhere calling upon a Divine One on behalf of the Whole. There’s enough of us to cover every minute of the day.
I learned that no one can or ever should tell us who we are. That’s their own creation. We were given our own Life. By Design, it’s the only life Human knowns. Sharing time with you I found that my feelings weren’t so different and our failures are common.
I was afraid of you and you have become the most beautiful blessing, so important for a year of my life that I’ve spent in isolation.
THANK YOU – YOU ARE THE GIFT! I LOVE YOU! I’M SO GLAD IT WAS YOU THAT WAS THERE.
love, in lak’ech – i am another you
Debra, Jaguar Spirit, 9 Eagle/MEN
ps IF THERE’S TYPOS, it’s because I refuse to edit on my Mayan birthday.